Have you ever wondered if you can run out of love? I've thought about that many times this week. This is my last week in Korea. And every day has brought yet another round of goodbyes - with my students, my co-teachers, my friends, my family, or my church. There have been times when I've just felt...dull. Emotionless. Like I've cried all my tears, I've given all of my love, I've said all of the goodbyes possible, and there's simply nothing left of me.
But then more love always seems to spring up from somewhere deep inside of me. It can be triggered by many things - the tears glistening in the eyes of a sweet student, the laughter of a dear friend, the notebook given to me by a student in which she had written a different note on every single page, the group of students who only had me as a teacher for 2 weeks last year, but yet they still took the time to special order a gift for me over the internet and give it to me as a group. Or maybe it's just a low level-student who struggles through a sentence or two in English so that she can say goodbye to me. Whatever the cause of it, I have found myself constantly surprised this week, over and over and over again, by the fact that I still have more tears to cry, still have more gifts to hand out, still have more people to thank, still have more love to give.
It's easy to think of God like I think of myself, as an individual with a finite supply of love to give His children. And, if His love truly is finite, then how could He ever remember ME?? So often, I feel like I have slipped through the cracks of His love. Goodness knows, He has so many other important things to think about...how could he possibly have time to love me, too??
But God's love is NOT finite. It is infinite. It is perfect, complete, and never-ending. And there is enough of His love to go around. There is enough for everyone. There is enough for the pregnant teenager who feels alone and afraid. There is enough for the drug addict who can't seem to escape his addiction. There is enough for the respectable-looking businessman who always clears the memory on his computer, so that no one will know what sorts of pictures he's been looking at. There is enough for the nerdy computer geek who is always getting picked on at school. There is enough for the housewife who constantly feels overworked and under-appreciated. There is enough. It is enough. God's love is enough for you. Period.
But then more love always seems to spring up from somewhere deep inside of me. It can be triggered by many things - the tears glistening in the eyes of a sweet student, the laughter of a dear friend, the notebook given to me by a student in which she had written a different note on every single page, the group of students who only had me as a teacher for 2 weeks last year, but yet they still took the time to special order a gift for me over the internet and give it to me as a group. Or maybe it's just a low level-student who struggles through a sentence or two in English so that she can say goodbye to me. Whatever the cause of it, I have found myself constantly surprised this week, over and over and over again, by the fact that I still have more tears to cry, still have more gifts to hand out, still have more people to thank, still have more love to give.
It's easy to think of God like I think of myself, as an individual with a finite supply of love to give His children. And, if His love truly is finite, then how could He ever remember ME?? So often, I feel like I have slipped through the cracks of His love. Goodness knows, He has so many other important things to think about...how could he possibly have time to love me, too??
But God's love is NOT finite. It is infinite. It is perfect, complete, and never-ending. And there is enough of His love to go around. There is enough for everyone. There is enough for the pregnant teenager who feels alone and afraid. There is enough for the drug addict who can't seem to escape his addiction. There is enough for the respectable-looking businessman who always clears the memory on his computer, so that no one will know what sorts of pictures he's been looking at. There is enough for the nerdy computer geek who is always getting picked on at school. There is enough for the housewife who constantly feels overworked and under-appreciated. There is enough. It is enough. God's love is enough for you. Period.
Song of Solomon 8:6-7
Place me like a seal over your heart,like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death,its jealousy unyielding as the grave.It burns like blazing fire,like a mighty flame. 7 Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot sweep it away.If one were to giveall the wealth of one’s house for love,it would be utterly scorned.
Wonderful blog! I'm praying for you! Make these last days count and continue to rely on God for your strength! See ya soon!
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